I know what that kind of pain is like.

The Dr.'s spent from grade 4 to grade 8 trying to figure out why I was in so much pain. My knees would hurt first & its the kind of pain that no matter how u more or how many pain killers u take its always there. Then it would go into my shins.

I was in so much pain, I would cry & cry & cry for hours. Most times it got so bad (so I've been told, I don't remember any of it it was that painful) I would squirming all over the place screaming & crying & litterly destroying the couch. I do remember when it would calm down a bit & find myself in my dads arms or rolled in a blanket that my dad put around me or squeezing the life out of RB Max (dad said he never whimpered or tried to get away, he would just try to get closer to me & sucked up all the pain I was causing him).

I think I had about 10-15 x-rays on my knees & I was taken to the big city to a Sports Hospital, in hopes to find something.

Saddly I went there when I wasn't in too much pain. But they think they found the cause & refused to fix it due to my age. My knee caps r really high up & they r guessing while I'm growing its ripping my tendons & ripping nerves apart. They said when I stop growing it'll still hurt but not nearly as much.

They were kinda right. My knees don't hurt as much, but when they do, watchout.. If it happeneds at work, I do my darnest to ignor it, then on the bus I try hard not to cry & then at home I rush into the shower to cry in there & turn the water really really really hot until my knees turn red & oddly enough it seems to help a bit. it takes the edge off.

Every day I walk with someone or past a big mouth, I hear the same thing, u walk funny. No $h!+ I don't know how to walk normally anymore. I don't bend my knees right in an unconsciencs effort to avoid pain (which isn't really there anymore). I try to correct myself & just end up weaving & shaking.. I do try to mimic the person I'm walking with in efforts to be able to copycat their walking. So far it kinda works, but I do forget to do it & end up walking runny anyway.

Sometimes nothing can be done & it really sucks. I'm too young to have knee surgery, already tried asking & my parents begged too. It drove my parents insane. There was noting they could do to help me.



Hopefully the ER Dr.'s will have better luck, they should have more exp in odd things.