I can understand what you are going through, totally. It will be one year on Halloween that my Mercedes went to the bridge. One whole year..still hard to believe. I had her for 16 years...she saw me thru a divorce, a remarriage, a move away from my family (500 miles) a new job, the list goes on..she helped raise my 2 kids..but she was MY baby. I wish I could tell you the pain will go away, it won't. It may get easier but you will always have that hole in your heart. I have another baby now, Gracie...and I got her 9 months to the day of Mercedes leaving me...and I love her to bits, and she isn't a replacement..she is another kid to me...
Mercedes was a mini schauzer...perfect in every way. Easy to travel with, seemed to know what was on my mind. Totally devoted..gosh, it makes me tear up when I think of her. And I think of her every single day. I don't know how many times I have called Gracie "Mercedes" and so has my husband. I have a lot of little schauzer statues and stuffed animals and they are all put away. Gracie doesn't use her old bowls or toys. Those were hers and hers alone. I have pictures hanging up of my kids and Mercedes that were taking professionally.
I will make new memories with gracie and love her unconditionally but there will always be a void that only my mercy could fill...

Hang on to your precious memories of Angus...