Sammy. good luck in everything you do, I am sure things will get better soon....I wish you much luck in finding your place in this world and I am sure you will soon, I know what you mean about feeling like you don't fit in, I too feel that way at times and I am 41 years old...my biggest thing is finding the right job for me, I still haven't found that yet Oh well, the good news is I feel as if I am very close to finding it !!!!!!!!!
Good Luck sweetie
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