Oh Aly I'm sorry you're going through this dilemma, I'm sure if Lolly had any idea that you felt this way she'd be more than happy to let Bailey stay. Sure doesn't take much time to get totally attached to these babies. I remember about this time last year my Panda Bear (feral Tabby cat) had her 3 three kittens and from the moment I laid eyes on the little white one (Braydee) I was in love. I did have him up for adoption, but ultimately there was no way I could let him go. It was so hard to find homes for the other two also, but they went to the homes of people I know and I still can visit them when I want to. Braydee turned into a 15 - 20 lb. white fur ball and is the sweetest baby in the world. Take care Aly and I'll be thinking of you - I'm sure you'll come up with the right decision for all concerned