Good question! I cannot offer any advice really but I can send some prayers your way!

I believe it's a toss between doing something that could really reward you, that you like, but that doesn't pay a lot or do something you like much less to be able to afford to do what you like to do. That's the story of my life... unfortunately I had to chose the second option, there is no way I would work in my field if I could chose.

Good luck, I really hope that you will be able to chose what you really like and sorry if I could not be more helpful