GASP! I just got around to reading this too..Oh, there are no words to express how deeply sad and sorry I am. It probably doesn't make you feel better, but you DID do the right thing. God Forbid, it could have happened to any of us. I'm so sorry that you've had such a run of bad luck. There are things in life we just can't explain. Please know that little Ember has her wings now and will be looking after you forever.