Thanks guys! You all know that I already knew the answers to those questions didn't you? I guess I just needed to vent and have some validation. Now that I'm ready for the kittens I can't find them anywhere. Hopefully momma will bring them along soon to eat. She's usually here first thing in the morning but of course not today.
The part I left out is that hubby had to bury one this morning that we picked up off the street last night. It was an older stray but still young. It broke my heart!
I just need time and resources!!! Hopefully I can get in touch with someone at the shelter today and get vet care for the little ones if I catch them. I'm also hoping they have fosters available but I'm sure that would be asking for way to much!!!
If God wants me to do this then why doesn't he give me more time? I would love to spend my life caring for these babies.