I am sorry to hear that you are so stressed.

Hopefully, when you are ready, you will come back realizing that this can be a place of comfort as we all understand not only the joys of having pets in our lives, but also the sadnesses.

As for not being able to locate the right new dog for your family, maybe this will help. At one of the times I was searching for a new cat addition I kept running into obstacles of one sort or another. at least 4 times I attempted to visit a shelter or a rescue event and something very unexpected turned up to prevent adoption (or even attending!) on my 5th try, and this was during a routine vet visit, NOT a cat search trip, I mentioned my desire to adopt to the vet receptionist that I had known for years. We joked about "If I could build the perfect cat it would be......." No sooner did I return home from this vet visit did I get a phone call from the receptionist saying that she had, in her hands, the exact cat that I just described 1 hour earlier. Needelss to say, if I'd have adopted on one of those first 4 tries, Jasper the Wondercat would not be the perfect part of my family now. (sorry that was so long )


So anyway....hurry back!