BandiTank, please don't think God doesn't want you to have pets. This is just a very unfortunate coincidence.

I recently posted that I was responsible for the accidental deaths of my three cats two years ago. I was devastated. It was the worst thing that had ever happened to me, and I've been through a lot of horrible things. I, too, after having had cats for 40 years, decided I was not worthy of having any more. I even moved into a no-pets apartment for the first time in my life.

Well, I guess God had too many unwanted animals still roaming his good earth, and so he brought to me a little kitty, still a kitten herself, that was homeless and about to have babies of her own. I set out to find her owner, but no one claimed her. I was even caught by the landlord who threatened eviction. I didn't have the heart to throw this sweet, pregnant little kitty out in the height of the summer heat, my goodness, how could I throw out a kitty that was playing hide and seek with me? So I went looking for another place to live, and found a nice little duplex in my price range in three days, ready to move in to (this is an area where occupancies remain at 99%, and most rentals have waiting lists months, even years long!). Two days before we moved, Peaches gave birth to Big Mac, Cookie and Pepper, and we still have all four. The kids had their second birthdays last week.

Yes, I still miss my dear little Yankee, Boosie, and Cosmo, but I no longer feel they hate me. And I now understand that what happened was just a horrible accident, it had no reflection on my worthiness to care for kitties. God showed me this when he sent little pregnant Peaches my way.

This is just a horrible coincidence, and I hope it does not keep you from sharing your love and compassion with more little furry and feathered friends. I was touched by your descrpition of the little lovebird, asleep by the little body. How sad.

I hope you feel better soon, it is so easy to fall into a depression when things like this happen. Remember, we are all here for you, whether you need to post again about this or even email us, we're here for you.