You most certainly do not sound depressing!! You sound like a very positive person to know and thank you for reminding us all of our blessings.
The first thing I do when it all gets too much is take the dogs out on my own and have a good look around me. It gives me hope for the future. Keep counting your blessings and things will never get too, too hard. (Not always easy!) And don't put yourself down again - you sound such a great person, we are all happier for talking to you.