I have 2 huge fears... and they sort of tie into each other. First, I'm so scared of Bella going before I do, which is a very big possibility because she is so much older than me. The other, is dying alone. It's not really the dying that bothers me, but I don't want to be stuck in a nursing home, with my mind gone and no one i care about or who cares about me there with me when I go.