I'm very afraid to die. Unfortunately I think about it a lot, like how you just never know when or how. That's what scares me. How I'm going to die! I'm really paranoid about gunfire. I don't know why, but I've had dreams that were VERY realistic where I was shot. Anyways, aside from that I'm also a little afraid about what happens afterwards. I try to have faith that there is a purpose and a plan, but I can't help but let myself wonder, what if afterwards - well what if there is no afterwards?? I choose to blieve there is a God and a great afterlife, but in the back of my head, I have doubts and I just hope that God understands my doubts. I think it's normal to have doubts. I just hope that in the end all those fantasies I've had of real happiness do come true. I think this life is hard enough that it would make sense that in the end the afterlife is a reward of happiness for all our struggles.