Ahhh, it's so good to talk to people who are understanding!!

Yes, to be honest, it hurts a lot to be not respected by my own family. It has always been like that. Even though they're helping me a lot at the moment (financially, because I cannot work since I got that sick), they never really understood me, I always felt like a stranger in my family. To them, I'm a freak because I prefer to live with cats instead of having a family. I better do not repeat all the comments I always have to listen to when it comes to that!

I wish there would be more people to help me at the moment. I could ask Gabi (neighbor), and she's already helping me a lot, but she has health problems as well and a lot of stress to deal with, so I don't want to bug her all the time. And Lily's first humans, also friends of mine, don't have much time either. They have a handcapped son and three dogs, and one of them cannot be left alone at home. Well, and my other friends don't live close enough, it's really annoying.

Yes, I think it would be the best if my step dad won't show up here anymore. Actually he's no bad guy, but he has absolutely no understanding of the way I'm living with my cats. The other day, he also got me angry. I got new curtains lately and Lily found them very interesting and tried to climb them. Of course she was told it's a no-no and much to my relief, she lost her interest after a couple of days. And now that jerk encouraged her the other day to climb them. Of course I told him not to do that, but it is so annoying! Whenever he is here, I have to tell him not to do this and that, and basically I'm scolding him all the time. This is what makes my mother mad. But what can I do? He's just so ignorant!!

Kirsten