Hi carole. Though I have bipolar disorder and that may be quite different, the social part, about wanting to avoid it at all costs, even if it meant doing without something you would really like to have, sounds very familiar to me as, I have had bouts with this too. Thanks so much for sharing with us so sincerely. I appreciate the input of you all. It looks as if I have became very rich in friends, right here at PT. God bless you. I pray that you are having an easier time as time goes on and you have had to deal with this painful problem for so long. I wish you the best of everything.