5 1/2 years ago I was a mess. I had a huge problem with anxiety but didn't know it. I just considered myself as shy. It was a lot more than that. I was afraid to go anywhere or do anything, I also couldn't talk to people. I was always in my bedroom. I became very depressed and was always crying or sleeping. I also was a cutter. I would cut my legs, and even burned them a couple times.

I've never really talked about this before to anyone except for a counselor, who didn't help. Then about 5 years ago I was put on paxil. Wow was I a new person after that!! Today I still am fighting the anxiety, but it's much better, and no depression. Also no cutting for about 5 years.

I am in the process of switching my meds because Justin and I want to have a baby soon. Paxil has too many side-effects that I've been dealing with for too long. Also you shouldn't be on paxil while you are pregnant or nursing. My doctor is switching me to zoloft, which has not proven to be harmful to babies. I am currently being weaned off the paxil.