Kim, don't you start blaming and beating yourself up!! You haven't done anything that most of us who have tried to rescue a lost, lonely, needy cat haven't done! We all know the "proper" way to do things but sometimes it just doesn't seem feasible at the time. When we were growing up we opened the door to anything. We never thought about testing for diseases or anything like that. Yes, we have all grown and become a little more educated about these things but your heart and pocket book can sometimes lead your head. At least in my case it does!
IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!! You tried your best to help so many and the price doesn't seem fair.
This has been a lesson learned for you, me and many others. A very sad lesson, I agree, but one that I will try to remember in the future.
God called those babies home for a reason. They had served their time and now they are free. The reason will be clear one day for us all.
We are all praying for you and the rest of your babies. Hang in there and try to think positively. You still have plenty of furbabies that need you and a brand new precious grandbaby on the way. Your life will be very full and happy again soon. You will never forget the ones you have lost but it will get better.
Remember that we love you and are praying for you.
Please keep us posted on how you are doing.