Oh Kim! I am heart broken for you! How scared you must be about the rest of your babies. I can't imagine your fear and the pain that must be in your heart. You have done so much good only to have this put on your plate. I'm so so so sorry! We know that God only puts on us what we can handle but sometimes that seems questionable I know. There is a reason for everything and in time we shall know what that reason is.
I'm just sick for you and if you just need to talk, scream, or vent in any way please feel free to contact me. We are all here for you.
Godspeed precious Duncan Noodle.