Thanks again everyone for the encouragement....

I really wish there could have been a way to keep Macy but Eric said no. And truly it would have been HELL introducing her to Queen Tinky. And as much as it hurts I really like this rescue shelter. They are spaying her this morning and i will probably call this afternoon and check on her.

I brought her in and they put her in the back room and let me say bye to her... She looked so small and pretty.. I told her she better be nice and pretty so she can make new friends... and when the lady walked in i showed her Macy's favorite spots to be petted.. so they can treat my little Macy Face right!!

I cried and cried and (the poor people) kept having to give me tissues and kept telling me how that i am giving her to the best rescue organization ever telling me how they are so picky about their screening process.. and how much they love cats too... and although that is so reassuring .. it still hurts.

anyway.. after i came home Eric gave me a big hug and he kept telling me about all our funny Macy stories... like when she was a new stray to us she used to come and sit at the front door (it is a glass door so we could see her)... and she would just sit there ALL THE TIME!!... and how she got so BIG when she was pregnant with the scooter bugs that she couldn't fit throught the porch railing anymore.. *sigh*.....

but ... the lady told me to call Nanette (the lady i've been communicating with) today and she can tell me where to get some have-a-heart traps for my last two heard heads.. and she said they will take them feral... Which i think i prefer.. cause falling in love with them earning their trust like with the other four scooter bugs.. was just too hard..

sorry so long and winded .... it just feels good to get your feelings out in the open to people who *really* understand..