I don't know the situation that you're going through. But, I can relate in that I lost my father as well. I was only 9 years old, but, it still hurts. I took solace in the thought that he's always with me. He's in my blood, no? Stick with your family, hold onto your mom. Surround yourself with the good stuff. I'll be thinking about you, even though I don't know you.