Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I think I made it thru the last 2 days b/c of all the thoughts and prayers uplifting me.
There was a throw there that I think is very fitting for those of us who have lost loved ones no matter who it was.
And attached is a pic of Grandma at Christmas.

If Tears could build a stairway and memories a lane
I would walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again.

I have said before if Love kept us alive none of us would ever die, and I think that is very very true. I was thinking the other day that all the tears I have shed for Grandma in her short illness and passing could be put in a bucket it would only be a drop in the bucket of my love for her. I know that everyone there thinks/feels the same way about her. And everyone who has lost a love one feels the same way, I know.
The other thing that made it a little easier was thinking that in her 88 years that she lived, Grandma went thru this time and time again. She lost her parents, grandparents, 2 sisters, brother in laws, and several friends. So what I am going thru is just small amount of the pain she felt. What I am going thru she went thru several times.
I think I am just babbling so I will end this post finally!
Thanks again!