HowieDawn,
I have been negligent also, not reading an update on this post until now.
I am so sorry for your pain and grief. I know Lucy will live on in your heart, but you are grieving for having to make such a hard decision. If we didn't love them so much, it wouldn't hurt so bad.
My prayers are with you. Just love on those other babies. May each day get a little easier for you.

Logan