Gini I am so sorry to read this. I have lost several pets myself and it is just awful. People who don't have pets just don't understand that it is definitely like losing a family member. There is such an empty space left. You had a lot of years with Patches and I know the memories will at times give you joy but also make you cry. Please know that your many friends at Pet Talk are sharing your loss with you. This is so hard to go through.