My heart is aching for you. I'm so sorry, Johanna.

I wish I could make you feel better. Here is my effort at doing so...

I believe, no, I KNOW that God hand picks our angels, human or other. I know God put you in Binx's life and he in yours. He needed your love and care before his final days on earth.

It takes a lot of love to end his suffering and pain. Working at a vet, I've seen a lot of people put animals through pain and suffering because they don't want to let them go, regardless of the poor quality of life they have to endure.

Please don't feel guilty, feel good about the amazing amount of love and concern you can hold in YOUR heart. You were amazing enough just loving and rescuing your cats. Then Binx came along and you not only rescued him from horrible people, but you gave him all the love in your heart.

I hope that one day, Binx will come to your mind and a smile will creep to your face and your heart will warm, not ache.

I'm very sorry Binx was only here a short while. We give a poem to people at work after they have to send their beloved family members to the Bridge. If you've heard it, forgive me. If not, hopefully it'll reassure you. Its a story of a family that has to send their Golden Retriever to the Bridge because its time. They want thier young son to observe so that he can fully grasp the meaning of life and death. After their beloved is gone, they sit and talk about why a dogs lifespan is so short in relation to humans. The little boy is quietly listening and sit thinking. Finally, he shares his opinion (and mine) on why our furry family members don't live on earth as long as we'd like. The boy states the following, "We are put on this earth to learn to be kind and treat everyone well. Its takes us a long time to figure that out, while dogs learn that real quickly."

I believe Binx learned that the second he took his first breath of air. With you, Johanna, he got the love he so freely gave the world.

Rest in peace, dear Binx. You will live on in the hearts of PTers and your mamma always.

Love, Kelly