I can't stop bawling. I am hurting both physically and emotionally, but my heart hurts more than anything. He's gone already. He went to a good friend named Julie. She has a Golden and her cats are used to dogs because dogs are always at her house. I didn't expect Ewok to just lunge at me like that, and now he won't go anywhere near me. He is terrified of me too, and I didn't even do anything to him. I gave her all of his belongings and she is going to bring him over to visit, or better yet I will go over there.

Lizbud, the plan was for me to take him so that he avoided being thrown onto the freeway or stuck in the pound, but if it worked out we were going to keep him. But obviously things didn't work out. I know we bonded, which is why I can't stop crying. I already fell in love with him.

I just got out of the shower and my eye opened up again, lucky me! They wanted to put stitches but couldn't because it was a cat scratch and has a high chance of getting infected. I have drops for my eye and ointment for the wound. I am just stunned Ewok lunged at me! I can't believe it. Dan just said I look like I got beat up, nice.

I don't know if I have the will to try again. Maybe a smaller dog, tiney, but a big dog I just don't think the cats would do well with. I mean Morgan was different, she wasn't a puppy and was just really well behaved. Houdini had no problems, so the only real one who would mind is Ewok, and I don't plan on letting him go any time soon.

His nail actually slit all the way through my lid and scratched my cornea. I can assure you he is in good hands, and someone that has more experience than I do. I may have a lot of experience with small and furries, but when it comes to large and furries I am horrible. I just don't understand. I am not meant to have a dog obviously. Pooka was stolen from our house, then Morgan passed what four months after we got her?! And now this! I LOVE that dog, and this sucks, and I don't know if I can go through this again. I thought I was doing good, but I wasn't.