Susan - welcome to Pet Talk - although no one can tell you how to get through the grief you are feeling, all we can say is that we understand exactly how you feel. I lost my wonderful Seal Point Siamese that I had for 12 years last March and a miss her so very much. She had a sweet, sweet personality that no other cat could ever have. Even though I have 4 cats, each one is special and I suffer an incredible lose when I have to see one pass to the Rainbow Bridge. However, the pain does die down with time and the pain is replaced with wonderful memories of the one departed. And so it will be with you. Take care Susan and God Bless You!!!