Johanna, the decison you made was made with love and much soul searching and reflection. There is not a person who has read of your accounts of all the efforts and endeavors on behalf of Binx who could think otherwise. Unfortunately as much as we would like to come up with solutions to all the problems we are faced with, reality slaps us in the face with...well, reality. The time Binx had with you was a gift, the love Binx had from you was a gift. In the end even the decision you made for him was a gift because it was the best you could do for him. That is all any of us can do for the ones we love. I personally know how hard it is to make this type of decision. Not making it doesn't seem right nor does making seem right, so in the end we just do the best we can.