OMG! I feel like my heart is breaking! Everytime I saw a SB, I always said "There's Binxy!"
There are so many of us that know exactly what you're feeling. I'll never, ever get over having to send Cody to RB, but like you, my love was so overwhelming and overpowering, I couldn't bear to see him suffer. Please, please, don't feel guilt. It was truly an unselfish act. Binxy would have suffered more with all those uncertain surgeries. He knows you worshipped him. Please have no regrets. The pain of losing him is unbearable and will always be with you, but now he is healthy and pain free and playing and keeping his eye on you, his precious, sweet, loving mommy. I've told Cody to greet him with a waggy butt, slurpy kisses and share his tennis balls. You'll be in my prayers.