I'm going back tonight. It's spay/nueter clinic night. After this I have agreed to volunteer Monday and Thursday nights and to help out on Saturdays when needed.
I agree Kim that it is overcrowding and yes they do foster but there aren't enough foster homes. They have repeatedly asked me if I would be interested in doing it and the answer is NO! I really do not have a place to put them and after what I saw I know that I would be bringing no telling what disease or illness home to my cats. I have to keep them top priority.
They do have a home that takes all their FIV kitties and fosters them. They have a very large home with something like 2500sq feet in an upstairs room. They currently have about 100 FIV positive cats that they care for. So at least they have a home. Those must be some wonderful people!
There was a bright spot!! While I was making some call for the shelter I felt someone come up behind me and plop a cat in my lap. His name was James and he was a beautiful buff kitty wearing a bright red collar. I was on the phone reminding someone about their spay appointment and James rolled over in my lap, belly up, and purred to the high heavens!!! He rolled and loved me until he was twisted in the phone cord and I was giggling and trying to talk on the phone! He reached up and wrapped his paws around my neck and gave me a kitty hug like I have never had before!! I helped get him wormed and flea treated because he was heading to the petsmart to be adopted out! Someone will be very lucky with that wonderful boy! He is why I'm going back!!! If I can help the others get to that point then I will be doing what I need to do. I may have a nervous breakdown before then but I'm going to try.
You all are going to have to help me through this first part. They promised me that over time you toughen up but I don't want to. I want to stay touched by these kitties.
Thanks again to all and a special thanks Kim for offering an ear. I just wish I knew how to make it better for them all.