catcrazylady, I'm also sometimes worrying about these things, so I can understand your fear very well.

It's not only the thought that I may die, I'm also worrying about losing my apartment in a couple of months and being forced to move back into a tiny single-room apartment (since I'm still unemployed and will be running out of unemployment money in May, I think this could happen). In that case - and the thought of that is worse than the most horrible nightmare - I would have to give my cats away. I cannot even stand to think about that, that would leave me heartbroken because I would lose the most precious thing in my life). It would mean they would have to be seperated because Lily would be taken back by her previous humans, but who would take Luna, a cat with litter box problems and the need to be on diet food all her life? I know so many people who don't have any tolerance when it comes to litter box accidents, and I know it takes a lot of patience and love to deal with Luna's little problem. I even think it would be better for her to take her with me into such a small apartment than giving her to the shelter or to people who would give her away as soon as she pees or poops on the floor. But Lily is a wild little thing with a lot of kitten energy, and it would be such a punishment for her to live in such a small place. On the other hand, it would be terrible for Lily to be seperated from Luna, because she really loves and adores her.

These are the things that are giving me sleepless nights for a while now...

Kirsten