I agree. Losing Lut is a shock, especially in this way. Since I have been here (it will be 4 years in June ) many people have come and gone. What makes this so different is the fact that she removed herself as a member and deleted her posts. That seems to me to be something done in anger and I never would have suspected that Lut would be capable of something like that. Her posts were always so warm and carefree and upbeat. Like the others, I guess we will just have to leave this alone and go forward.