You lost someone very special to you. Tom is with a lot of other beautiful cats in heaven. No more pain. We lost our Samantha 5 yrs ago on December 16th she was 13 and she had the looks of Tom but a little more black than Tom. We miss her still. So sorry to hear of your loss. It was such a tragedy. It is hard we know. You get so attached to them they are your children in fur. Take care!! Our hearts go out to you.