I don't really have any advice but I do have sympathy. I went through a rough time in my life right after my divorce. I was like you are now for about six months. Don't let it get you too down. It does pass and hopefully, yours won't last as long as mine did. Eventually, you will just realise you can't live like that anymore and will snap out of it. Or at least that's how it was for me. Also, don't be afraid or ashamed to go to counseling. I've been before and it does help.