Hi. I had hoped that I would be able to write about Lucy and post pictures by now but I am feeling too sad. But I would like to write about Gigi. I thought that by now I would be feeling a bit better but I don't. It has been two weeks since Gigi died and I miss her more than ever. Every day I pine for her more and more. It feels like I haven't seen her for such a long time.

Gigi used to sit in the garden and stare through the window to try and catch my attention so that I would open it and let her in. Of course I always did open the window, asking her why couldn't she use the catflap like a 'normal' cat! Since she died I've had this silly idea that if I kept a candle alight in the window she might see it and come home....I know she won't but I can't give up just yet.

Some things I miss about Gigi: I miss her complaining about the food I give her and the way she would somehow manage to get me to open four different types of food and then always eat the first one and leave the others. I miss the way she would be waiting for me when I got home from work and roll over on her back for me to tickle her soft fluffy tummy. I miss the way she moaned every time I spoke to someone on the phone and then walk away once I had put the phone down. I miss the way she would come charging through the catflap during the night and insist on waking me to tell me what she had been doing out there. I miss the way she was always ready for a cuddle no matter what. I miss looking out of the window and seeing her sitting on the garden bench. I miss her soft pink pads and her single black one and I miss the little black freckle on her bottom lip. I miss her very floppy belly and her little ginger bit under her nose. I miss the games we used to play. I just miss every part of her. I miss my little shadow.

Sorry to ramble - thanks for listening.