I feel your pain and I know how much you love Max. I know a lot of people say this, but it does get better. Time helps a lot, but then you will find yourself back where you started and feel like you just lost him. I went through that on Christmas Eve because of my Shih Tzu, Angie, which died in June. Try to let your heart heal, but never forget Max. You will think of stories about him and smile again.