I just woke up from a long night of little sleep. I want to thank everyone for their support during my lost. While it is a comfort, I cried while reading all of your responses.

Slick asked about my Mikki and Joker. Mikki was with us from 2 months of age and she had a great life. Joker was a different story, we took him out of a bad situation at the age of 11. He had severe heartworm, had never been to the vet, and never been neutered. Fortunately, after lots of trips to the vet we were able to cure him of his heartworm. Joker loved me so much, I think it was because I rescued him. I think the most difficult thing for me is the fact that he died by himself in the family room. I only wish I knew how long it was before he died. When I went to bed at 11:00, he was sleeping peacefully, with my cat Kona at his side, we found him at 5:30 in the morning. I can only pray if wasn't long.