Dear Tod I'm so sorry your Mum has passed away. How very sad for you - such a sense of desolation isn't it?
You just have to take one day at a time - it's an awful struggle I know.
Mum's are so special and I still feel a sense of 'guilt' for not having done more for my dear Mum before she passed 2 years ago.
Hold tight to the good memories and weep as much as you want to - sometimes it helps. You'll find that a little thing will trigger memories eg: a piece of music - and you'll be in floods of tears. This is normal.
My thoughts are with you at this sad time and I send {{{{Hugs}}}} across the miles - you can PM me at any time if you feel the need.

Lynne