Add me to the list of wellwishers too! My family has experienced a similar situation with an illness and nursing home care and recent cancer deaths too. I really, honestly feel your anxiety and tension. You never have a clear mind or heart. It take a toll on everything and everyone. Please try not to feel so bad about the arguments. I had to go to a therapist after my dad died and it is so normal for these things to happen. I don't think I said "I'm sorry" so much in my life. We've always been a "huggy/kissy" family and at the end of the day, tears and hugs went a long way. It's so frustrating to see a family member suffer, especially a parent who's not allowed to get sick...Rolls reversed in my family when I had to wash and change my dad for a while. Please know, and I'm sure you do..that your mom and dad know you love them to bits. I'm glad you're going to have a family Thanksgiving. It'll help to see everyone. Like Sandra.."Daddy Prayers" will be said for you. Please also give him a big hug from me and lots of encouragement for a speedy recovery!