NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO


NO

I will not allow you to say that or think that way. You are an AMAZING cat mom and all of here at PT knows it. It's so completely obvious.

Maybe Corkscrew has kitty herpes which never fully goes away, but comes back every now and then.

Please, don't be hard on yourself. You do the best you can, and you give those two cats so much love. More love, care and attention than most people give their human loved ones.