I'm sorry, but watching those videos is extremely depressing. After watching them, I am certian that if I am EVER in any state similar to this that I want to be killed/starved/murdered/put out of my misery.

No one in my family had better allow me to exist like that. That is no where near living. Hell, thats barely an existance. And though I don't believe it's possible, I would find a way to haunt my family if they did that to me for 13 years.

I am making an appointment with an attoney for the week that I'm on vacation. I don't intend for this to ever be my "life".