Thanks everyone for the words of encouragement.... I honestly felt better to have read your posts. It is so good to know people that understand and love animals the same way that I do. I am looking forward to adopting my next cat... However, I have to recuperate from the vet bill first and I have to TNR the rest of my colony, Didi's sister and mom. They seem to be very wild so the best way to help them right now is to spay and provide vaccines for them. Also mama cat just had kittens before we could have her spayed. I would probably take them home when they get a little bigger....(I'm posting their picture next) But most of all I have to disinfect the house. The vet suggested to clean the house with bleach and to not take in animals for a month. One thing's for sure, I'm not taking them in without having to go to the vet first.

Thanks again! Didi's story ended way too soon but I guess it's time to move on and start another cat's story....