I'm so sorry to hear your news, I know exactly how you feel. I had to get my baby (Jock) put down a month ago and it broke my heart. Its the hardest and saddest thing I've ever done in my life but deep down I knew it was for the best. Time is a great healer and I'm able to talk about the happy times we had together but there isn't a day goes by where I don't think about him. Hugs to you, be strong !!!