Aly, I wouldn't say it says: "SUCKER" across your forehead. I would say it says: "ANGEL" and somehwere above your head is a halo. I just find it so very hard to beleive that humans (and I use the term lightly) would throw out puppies like garbage. Because they didn't get their dog fixed and were careless when she was in heat. Those little guys are the luckest pups to have you. I was very sorry to hear about your Peka, I too beleive that she sent these little guys to help ease your pain and suffering. I know that in the end you will get the gold stars for what you do and the other people will not, and we can't say what it is that they will get. You hang in there Aly, I wish that I could help you.