Oh Amy. It was 5 yrs. ago, Sept. 5th, at 5pm that my Jingles left for Heaven. I cried and cried that day, just as I do every day on the anniversary of her passing. I touched and kissed and committed to memory every nook and cranny of her precious body. I sang "her" song all the way to the vet's and held onto her so tightly, kissing her face, nibbling on her soft lips, whispering into her ear that I loved her, as she passed. There isn't a day that goes by that a thought, a memory of my beautiful girl doesn't enter my mind. She's so much a part of my being and that will never change. What gives me comfort is knowing that one day, in the distant future, she and I will be together again. I had her creamated (individual, private) and she lays now in a beautiful urn with her picture painted on it where I can see it always. I talk to her all the time to let her know how much I miss her and love her. I still cry, Amy. There's nothing wrong with you. We all grieve in our way in our time. Let the tears come. Time doesn't heal all wounds, but it lessens the pain. Give yourself the time you need and give yourself the right to grieve the way YOU need to. Shina was your most beloved and cherished best friend for so many years; your dog of a lifetime. It's going to take a while for the intense pain to lessen. Please know that many here know what you're going through. Come here any time to talk, ok?? Love, Sandra