Aly, you can't do this to yourself, it's only making it 100x more difficult for you. You are doing the right thing... go read your first post in this thread. That is no way for a dog to go on. It is Peka's time... as hard as that may be, it is her time. She owes a lot to you and in her own special way, loves you and thanks you for it. But now it's time for her to go on to a place where she's happy and without any pain...

Let her go, Aly...

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