The vets support my decision. They say she is really sick, but I am the only one who can measure her quality of life since I am the one who lives with her.

Peka's eyes are sad and she just doesn't seem to have a life anymore. She still walks around fine and loves to eat. But .. when I look into her eyes ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

She does sleep in her own pee and some other weird things.

If I don't go through with it, it will be for selfish reasons I'm afraid. I think I need to make myself. The vet techs and vets where I'm taking her are very dear people. I didn't go to sleep last night and my eyes are burning from crying.