The Hardest Decision

[slick]

If you look to your heart and to Peka, the answer will come. I believe that if Peka does not have quality of life, then you are doing the right thing. We love you and are here for you at this difficult time. For now, just be with Peka as much as you can and know that she loves you too, in her own way.

[Sudilar]

Aly, it is time. You know it, Peka knows it, God knows it. Since you love her best, you must be the one to set her free, BECAUSE you love her. As you've described, Peka's quality of life has failed. No matter how much we hate for that to happen, it still does. That's life.... and sadly, death. You have given Peka, in the the short time that you've had her, the love of a lifetime! If it weren't for you, she would have never known love. She may act aloof because she never knew love before you came along and never learned how to accept it and give it back. Maybe she doesn't like to be held because she hurts. In her way, she loves you very much and knows you love her.
It is time now. If you cannot be with her, she will not fault you. Being present at the final moments takes an unbearable amount of strength that sometimes just can't be suffered. She will still love you. It doesn't mean that you love her less. No one blames you. Don't ever think that anyone does.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and Peka tomorrow. Soon she will be painfree and running with the best of them at the PetTalk area of Rainbow Bridge. Hugs.

[KYS]

My thoughts and heart are with you.



{{{Hugs}}}

Karen

[Logan]

Aly, hold your head up high and love that girl to the last possible minute. She may not be Reese or Loli in her disposition, but you have extended her life and given her as much love as she has probably ever experienced. That's a lot, my friend.

And you are being courageous and keeping Peka in the forefront by making this decision. I'm just sorry that one or more of us can't be there with you.

Logan

[Cinder & Smoke]

Dear Aly ~

We'll ALL be there with You, and Dear Peka, on Friday.

Not able to give you both a physical {Hug};
but we'll be with you in Spirit...

Be strong Aly, and KNOW that you're doing what's best for Peka.

Safe Trip to The Bridge, Dear Peka!

/s/ Phred

[delidog]

Godspeed,Dear Peka!!!!
You have known The Greatest Kind of Love...The Selfless acts of Aly...You know this Sweet Peka....Have a Safe Trip OverThe Bridge...And Run Pain Free with all of Our Dear Departed Ones!!!
Peka and Aly,You are in our Prayers

[aly]

I dont know if I can do this

[wolf_Q]

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[Stenograsaurus]

Oh, Aly, I am so sorry you are going through this. It is hard. My thoughts and prayers are with you today.

[Sudilar]

Originally posted by aly
I dont know if I can do this

Aly, I COULDN'T do it for Avalanche, but I guess I should have. I was waiting for that "miracle" that didn't happen.

Look into Peka's eyes.....look at her actions........ She will tell you.

Our hearts and souls are with you today. If you feel that you can not, then don't. What do the doctors say??

[zippy-kat]

((Aly & Peka))

[aly]

The vets support my decision. They say she is really sick, but I am the only one who can measure her quality of life since I am the one who lives with her.

Peka's eyes are sad and she just doesn't seem to have a life anymore. She still walks around fine and loves to eat. But .. when I look into her eyes ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

She does sleep in her own pee and some other weird things.

If I don't go through with it, it will be for selfish reasons I'm afraid. I think I need to make myself. The vet techs and vets where I'm taking her are very dear people. I didn't go to sleep last night and my eyes are burning from crying.

[aly]

I feel like slashing my own tires for an excuse not to be able to go

[lbaker]

Aly, just as you can see the pain in Peka's eyes don't you think Reece, Lolly and Peka too, can see the pain in YOUR eyes Step up, do what you have to do then sit with your other babies and let them comfort you as only they can do. We love you.

[gini]

And more hugs for you Aly!