Shina was absolutely gorgeous! And you are going through what I am going through - my wonderful rottie died a month ago and I feel like I've lost my right arm! I know what you mean about loving her so much - I wish that she were here right now! She was a rescued rottie that people thought was an aggressive dog - but she came here and we bonded and it was a story made in heaven! she was not aggressive at all - she just needed a family that understood her - rotties are very vocal dogs! NIki talked constantly - to people that don't understand - she was being aggressive - to us - we knew she was talking to us! Gosh I miss her so much! The only way that I could go on was the thought that whenever I would mourn over her - it kept her from going on to her rewards so she could be with me - so I bit my lip - and closed my eyes and in my minds eye, I gave her to God to take care of till I get there - that seemed to help -