My very deepest sympathies. I too feel your pain, you may not realize it now but you DID do the right thing for Jock. He will no longer be in pain, and the most important thing is that you gave him a love that no one else in this world could have given him...you gave him YOUR love.

Jock, look for Tony, Tobias and Cleo, they will be waiting for you on the other side of the rainbow bridge.