Every time I look at her I brake into tears. I'm such an awful mom! How could I let this happen!!!

Tonight was the first night of giveing her medicine. It took me about a half hour. I crushed up her pills and added water and gave them to her through a seringe. And then I aplied warm water to her face and then added a special medicated soap. I then waited 5 or so mins and then rinsed the soap off. I again aplied warm water to her wounds and then aplied neosporin. She didn't mind any of it but the watered down medicine and I honestly think she enjoyed the warm wash cloth. She is such a angel. I was sitting there (crying) and she just kept hitting me with her head, so I finally began stroaking her back and talking to her. She then layed down and shut her eyes.

Ash