I lost my father 4 years ago, that was the hardest thing for me to ever deal with. My father was my best friend, but with his funeral we didn't have a 'normal' one it was everyone who wanted to be there and get up in front of every and share their stories of my dad with everyone. I wanted to get up and say something but I didn't have the strenth to do it. I wrote him a poem 3 days after he died and someone read it at the funeral, which I started to cry once some one started reading it. Everything in the poem was honest, true, and I never knew how much he ment to me until I lost him. It has been 4 years now and I am still having alot of problems trying to deal with it or handle it. Also while I was in school, (I was 17 when he died) I ended up dropping out due to the other students making fun of me for having alot of emotional problems. My mom's new boyfriend (very nice guy) told her that I don't show any emotions anymore, that I have no feelings for things. Which I think is very untrue. I still cry at least once a month I still get angry and happy and many other emotions that people have. But he has never seen me mad or sad or depresed or anything else he has always seen me willing to joke around with my mom.

Things will get better for you. If you ever want to talk I am also here for you.

Katie

Keep your head up and don't let others bother you.